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I am at home today. There's work to be done here and I'm the man for the job. I wonder why it is that whenever my wife gets an idea for a project it translates to more work for me... HA!

Yesterday was an interesting day. Sundays are usually days of rest and peace, but yesterday was particularly good. I struggle a lot. But I am starting to realize that my struggling is not in vain, nor do I struggle alone. I am grateful for the love and support of the few who know and really understand me and my heart. Because I am not a struggler, even though I may struggle. Does that make sense? I am not defined by the struggle. I am a son of God, and I am on the path that will lead me to Him.

I do not understand why life has to be the way it is. I don't understand why I feel so weak and helpless... But I know that God loves me. That may be all I need to understand, after all.

So struggle I shall, until I overcome. The last enemy that shall be overcome is death - spiritual and physical. It is through the atonement that these things may be overcome. I know that now in ways I never have before - how much I am really, really reliant on Him. I am weak, but He is strong, mighty to save.

I love you. I know you love me, too. I am so very grateful for you, more than I could ever say. You know who you are. You are helping me to see who I really am, helping me to become that person. Thank you for your patience and faith and love. I feel it every second of every moment. And I love you for it. Please, please believe me - I really do love you.

PS - 1974 is the year of the tiger...

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