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Voyeur

You stand there looking in
As I bare my soul
I've never been good at hiding it, anyway
Maybe it's a failing of mine
My soul still remembers your touch
Fiery, blazing, warm, and bright
And my heart yearns for it
Absolutely aches
I remember how it felt
To look into your eyes
And see the love that was there
The love that was for me
Which is no longer the case
No longer true
And I die a little bit
Every time I think of your eyes
Your arms around me
Yet still you stand there, looking in
Like a visitor to the intensive care ward
Watching an accident victim
Bleed out
I cannot even turn my head
To see if your eyes are filled with tears, too
Because I'm afraid I will look
And see that they're not

Maybe stone angels do not weep

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lillysmum said…
Beautiful but sad.
I don't think it's a failing, baring your soul. I think it's courageous.
February 25, 2015 at 9:47 AM
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