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I'm tired, y'all.

I'm tired of being told that my emotions are a "handicap." They're not.

I'm tired of being asked if I feel lonely and tragically misunderstood. I do feel that way at times, but not always.

I'm tired of being asked if I will commit suicide. I won't. Ever. It's just not something I would do or even entertain.

I'm tired of being asked if I am depressed. I'm not. My life is very good and fulfilling.

I'm tired of being treated like there's something wrong with me. There isn't.

I'm tired of being shackled to someone who cannot understand me.

I'm tired of that same person being unwilling even to try.

I'm tired of having my emotions discounted because I'm overreacting or overly emotional.

But most of all, I'm tired of wanting to share these feelings and emotions, only to have them rebuffed. Even - especially (!) - when these emotions are glorious, spiritual inklings that fill my soul with light and life and joy.

I will carry on, and I will persevere.

I'm just tired. That's all.

Comments

lillysmum said…
I understand the tired. But, you are loved. So, there's that. :)
November 19, 2014 at 12:32 PM
Bill Cobabe said…
Indeed. Thank you for the reminder.
November 19, 2014 at 12:49 PM
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