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I have many things coming up in my life, things of importance and significance. Some of them affect only me, while others affect the people I love most. I don't have a crystal ball or goat entrails to catch glimpses of the future. All I have to go by is my past experience and my hopes for the future.

My career is on the verge of taking a potentially interesting turn, both geographically and with regard to promotion and advancement. I don't like change any more than the next person. I like to feel comfortable in my surroundings, my position, my life. I like feeling secure and stable and in control. And yet... and yet......

Control is seldom more than an illusion anyway. Suppose I were in a car accident on my way home this evening... paralyzed and infirm forever. (God forbid). How would that change the way I live? How would I react? What would I do differently? What would my priorities be then? Things that were once so concrete and simple would instantly and irrevocably become complex and fluid. Certainly things would settle out into a more or less relative normal. But it would be different, and it would be as a result of something that is out of my control.

This is just an illustration, of course. We are all just trying to do our best, doing what we feel and hope and dream and desire. Sometimes it works beautifully and according to plan, other times it's all a complete failure and mess. However, and in spite of it all, I firmly (!) and resolutely and irrepressibly (!) believe that things turn out for the best. I really do. I do not know why or how. But I know that they do.

Life is an interesting mixture of trying, of success, of failure, and of struggle. These struggles are refining and defining. Adversity and weakness are given to us to humble us and make us pure and worthy.

Opportunities should be sought out and pursued with care, but also with enthusiasm and hope.

And so, today, I am hopeful. Thursday is going to be an interesting day.

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